home.

Could there have been a better time?

I’m a phoenix in the water
A fish that’s learned to fly
And I’ve always been a daughter
But feathers are meant for the sky
And so I’m wishing, wishing further,
For the excitement to arrive
It’s just I’d rather be causing the chaos
Than laying at the sharp end of this knife

With every small disaster
I’ll let the waters still
Take me away to some place real

‘Cause they say home is where your heart is set in stone
Is where you go when you’re alone
Is where you go to rest your bones
It’s not just where you lay your head
It’s not just where you make your bed
As long as we’re together, does it matter where we go?
Home home home home

So when I’m ready to be bolder,
And my cuts have healed with time
Comfort will rest on my shoulder
And I’ll bury my future behind
I’ll always keep you with me
You’ll be always on my mind
But there’s a shining in the shadows
I’ll never know unless I try

With every small disaster
I’ll let the waters still
Take me away to some place real
Gabrielle Aplin English Rain – Home: http://youtu.be/BZL-VZ1GIdA

Self Destruct in 3 2 1

It is never easy. It is never going to be easy but the problem is I’ve always courted easy, chosen easy, been satisfied with easy until M came along.

If losing everything you love in a span of 12 hours is a feat, guess what, I did it in 10.

Life with M wasn’t easy. Life without M, Mom and my baby girl is going to be excruciatingly difficult.

Cue SIA and self-destruct. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=539lIBy7QXs

“Breathe Me”

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there’s no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I’ve lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Insignificant

How effortlessly you dismiss me like a house-fly on a summer’s day,
Now Your words, no matter how kind, rip through me like bullets.
Important to you one day, found in the garbage the next,
It’s so frequent a ritual that my heart now finds comfort amongst the rot.
Sabotage! Sabotage! it screamed, now reduced to a whimper;
So petrified of your temper.
In equal measure love and hate,
It’s hard to tell which is which.
Thank You for letting me know,
I can never be more, than an
Insignificant, ignorant, arrogant, bitch.